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 I’m really frustrated and confused right now, and I don’t know where to turn. I recently found out that my FSIQ score is in the 12th percentile, which I know is below average, but I’m still trying to figure out what that really means for me. I’ve always had cognitive deficits—trouble processing information, staying focused, and understanding instructions—but now that I’ve got the numbers, it feels like everything’s just a blur.

I also have a diagnosis of ASD (Autism Spectrum Disorder), ADHD, and a Learning Disability in Mathematics and Written Expression. On top of that, I suspect I may have an undiagnosed Personality Disorder or Mood Disorder, or maybe I’m emotionally disturbed or disabled in some way. Honestly, I have no idea what to think. My medical history is all over the place, and I don’t feel like I have a full picture of my diagnoses.

I’m frustrated because I can’t seem to make sense of all these different things. What does the FSIQ score mean for me? Is it related to my ASD or ADHD? And why do I have such a hard time understanding what’s going on in my own head? I just feel like I’m lost in a sea of diagnoses and no clear answers. It’s overwhelming, and honestly, I’m angry that I don’t know my own medical history as well as I should.

Does anyone else feel like this? Like you know something’s not right, but you’re just left trying to piece together the puzzle without any real answers? Any advice or similar experiences would really help right now. I’m just really lost and confused.

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