My Autistic Brain and Its' Thoughts

 I think i will turn this blog into a journal where i share my day to day life. Of course, without sharing private information that will make it easy for people to know who i am, my real name, and where i live and anything that i also personally deem to be private information. This will be my first entry into the changing times of my blog. It will no longer be considered a full blog, but more so an online journal that people can read with entries about my days all the way to sub entries where i explain certain thoughts and get those thoughts out into the world. I don't think anyone really reads or even knows this exists, so i might as well just experiment with it for the time being before i inevitably have this found or deleted.  Anyway, i'm aware that it's now October 19, but i wanted to make a full recap of the last day's experiences and events to start this new online journalling thing out for the first time. I have already done some example of this on one of my soci...

 I realize that i haven't been very active on this site, once again, but i remember that i have this of course. I never really have been that active on here, and that if i blogged, the blogs usually went to my 2 blogs that i have set up on wordpress.  But this time around, i've not been active on there either. I really don't get noticed, and that's fine, but i genuinely find that i struggle to manage those two sites. Posting is easy, but i search up my blog name and i never see my name amongst the highly specific search i made for either of them.  Whatever, i guess, i'll be semi-active and give updates every few monthes, provided i still remember my password for all of them. I have tried on Tumblr a blog but they usually are very much popular and that is usually because i had to be an activist, which i think would not be good because i may or may not make a couple of mistakes and that will be the end of it all. I already stopped once due to a self diagnosis controve...

 1, and most important part: I returned to school some time ago. I'm now in my final year of school, but we have yet to have an actual plan of the afterwards. But, not yet. I have one class for the whole semester so i won't be as stressed nor crazed as i was last year. 2, and semi-important still: I had my eye check up and subsequently ordered my new glasses, then i ordered new glasses again so i have a choice of eye wear fashion.  3, The actually important point: I now use AAC semi-frequently when need be. I just wanted to keep people up to date here. 

 I have a lot of blogs. That is to say, i have 3 blogs. This one, sillykittysquid and My Autistic Brain and All Its' Thoughts. Those ones are all on WordPress and i have posted somewhat on those two ones beforehand.  Here is the link. https://kaitlynelianna2.wordpress.com/ (MABAIT) Here is the link to the other one. https://sillykittysquid.wordpress.com/

I felt rather inspired to try my hand at this debate that is so prevalent within the autism community today by posting this, um, rather controversial topic. You have your opinions, your own views of your autism, but mine and some other autistics are different with their opinions. I say this to remind you to not be surprised to see some autistics disagreeing with the “autism is a difference” idea that is being debated on the autism net today. Mine are of the latter. I personally disagree with people saying, or denying, that autism is not a disability. I also disagree with people saying that autism is a difference, and not a disability. But i won’t use this post to fakeclaim or to judge anyone, i am just sharing my views on this matter. For me personally, my autism is a big disability. It may seem like an offensive word for some people, but it is the truth in my case. I am impaired socially, and maybe even a bit mentally as well as a result of having the autism that i do. I bet that othe...

 I am still in High School and graduation is basically still two years away, but i sometimes can't help but worry and think obsessively over my future life as an autistic adult with Medium Support Needs. This is going to be a post that is unlike the others in this blog account, but i should let this go. I feel like i need to rant here to let some of my worries go, or something, but i just have an urge to make and to post this after being so inactive for a while.  (I know no one really sees this for some reason, i am figuring it out i guess.) I have been in meetings at school with community living agencies so we, me parents and my program support teacher, could discuss the choices for my future. And those choices are perfectly good for me as they can provide an easy way to a routine that i like, but for some reason it's still a bit shocking to think about it. To think about not going to school, not being a kid and being more responsible for myself than i ever was when i wasn...