My Autistic Brain and Its' Thoughts

I have mid support needs autism. Or that’s what my local developmental agency described my support needs as anyway. And support needs fluctuating is not true in that you can dip down or lift up to another autism level every day. Of course, humans, including disabled and autistic ones, support needs fluctuates on a daily basis. That’s normal. What’s not normal is that the support needs go from low support needs one day all the way to high support needs without it at least being consistent or being that persons baseline. And that doesn’t happen to most of these people who claim that they can have level one days then have level two or three days. That’s just not how that works. So let’s use myself as an example of how this doesn’t work the way you think it does: I can’t cook for myself. Not in a way of I struggle to get started but once I’m working, I can cook all by myself. It’s in a way of needing parents to cook for me. I can’t help them out consistently by chopping up food, and I can’...

  So i've come back from McDonald's and as usual, it was very loud and overstimulating. I have nothing against the parents nor the workers, but i just wanted to say how glad i am that i bring my noise cancelling headphones every time that i go there. Because see, every time i am there, it seems that nearly the entirety of my neighborhood is there (Usually when i come later in the afternoon hours though). In which case, makes things very overstimulating. I could feel as if my senses were becoming numb and my thinking began to slow down to an even more slower pace than it was at before. I was not mentally available as i've come to call it, due to having multiple brain farts all in the same minute. My mom was calling me to do things and couldn't let me have a breather, but in reality, she gave me more than enough time in between the demands that i felt that when i had stammered due to the overstimulation i was being overdramatic. But i wasn't. I was struggling and i co...

 hi everyone, its been a while since i last uploaded a post here. so im returning, but no promises on if i will continue to upload posts. i may just forget that this blog exists again, lol. anyway, while i havent been posting lately, ive had a ton of exciting and cool things happen. the first thing that was exciting was that i graduated from high school. that was a month or so ago, and so now im on my way to college. the college course that im enrolled in currently is online and is a library technician course. basically, its to teach me and other students enrolled in it how to be a library technician or in simpler words, how to be a librarian, either for schools or for your average public town library. thats the job im aiming for when im done with that course, to become a librarian for my towns local library especially when it comes to sorting books and such. but i know for a fact that it will be difficult because im autistic and that means that i struggle with social interactions....

 I think i will turn this blog into a journal where i share my day to day life. Of course, without sharing private information that will make it easy for people to know who i am, my real name, and where i live and anything that i also personally deem to be private information. This will be my first entry into the changing times of my blog. It will no longer be considered a full blog, but more so an online journal that people can read with entries about my days all the way to sub entries where i explain certain thoughts and get those thoughts out into the world. I don't think anyone really reads or even knows this exists, so i might as well just experiment with it for the time being before i inevitably have this found or deleted.  Anyway, i'm aware that it's now October 19, but i wanted to make a full recap of the last day's experiences and events to start this new online journalling thing out for the first time. I have already done some example of this on one of my soci...

 I realize that i haven't been very active on this site, once again, but i remember that i have this of course. I never really have been that active on here, and that if i blogged, the blogs usually went to my 2 blogs that i have set up on wordpress.  But this time around, i've not been active on there either. I really don't get noticed, and that's fine, but i genuinely find that i struggle to manage those two sites. Posting is easy, but i search up my blog name and i never see my name amongst the highly specific search i made for either of them.  Whatever, i guess, i'll be semi-active and give updates every few monthes, provided i still remember my password for all of them. I have tried on Tumblr a blog but they usually are very much popular and that is usually because i had to be an activist, which i think would not be good because i may or may not make a couple of mistakes and that will be the end of it all. I already stopped once due to a self diagnosis controve...

 1, and most important part: I returned to school some time ago. I'm now in my final year of school, but we have yet to have an actual plan of the afterwards. But, not yet. I have one class for the whole semester so i won't be as stressed nor crazed as i was last year. 2, and semi-important still: I had my eye check up and subsequently ordered my new glasses, then i ordered new glasses again so i have a choice of eye wear fashion.  3, The actually important point: I now use AAC semi-frequently when need be. I just wanted to keep people up to date here.