My Autistic Brain and Its' Thoughts

I felt rather inspired to try my hand at this debate that is so prevalent within the autism community today by posting this, um, rather controversial topic. You have your opinions, your own views of your autism, but mine and some other autistics are different with their opinions. I say this to remind you to not be surprised to see some autistics disagreeing with the “autism is a difference” idea that is being debated on the autism net today. Mine are of the latter. I personally disagree with people saying, or denying, that autism is not a disability. I also disagree with people saying that autism is a difference, and not a disability. But i won’t use this post to fakeclaim or to judge anyone, i am just sharing my views on this matter. For me personally, my autism is a big disability. It may seem like an offensive word for some people, but it is the truth in my case. I am impaired socially, and maybe even a bit mentally as well as a result of having the autism that i do. I bet that othe...

 I am still in High School and graduation is basically still two years away, but i sometimes can't help but worry and think obsessively over my future life as an autistic adult with Medium Support Needs. This is going to be a post that is unlike the others in this blog account, but i should let this go. I feel like i need to rant here to let some of my worries go, or something, but i just have an urge to make and to post this after being so inactive for a while.  (I know no one really sees this for some reason, i am figuring it out i guess.) I have been in meetings at school with community living agencies so we, me parents and my program support teacher, could discuss the choices for my future. And those choices are perfectly good for me as they can provide an easy way to a routine that i like, but for some reason it's still a bit shocking to think about it. To think about not going to school, not being a kid and being more responsible for myself than i ever was when i wasn...

IMPORTANT RULES FOR THE AUTISTIC BRAINS DISCORD SERVER! 1. (Most Important Rule) Treat everyone with respect. Absolutely no harassment, witch hunting, sexism, racism, or hate speech will be tolerated. This goes for swear words and slurs too. 2. Only 16+ allowed! Every member below 16 years old will be kicked, or depending on their lying/infraction, will be banned for a period of time. 3. Respect everyone's differences, absolutely no fake claiming or arguments about whose disability is "worse". Nothing about that at all. Bans will be handed out to those who initiate these debates and arguments. 4. Refrain from discussions about known controversial things such as; ABA, functioning labels, Autism Speaks, and if autism should be cured. This is not something that will get you banned, it is just heavily discouraged. 5. No spam or self-promotion (server invites, advertisements, etc) anywhere that is not specifically for self promo. Spamming goes into their respective c...

 Yesterday night, i was driven by my mom to this program, it was an autism social skills program with 5, me included, members in total. It had a rough start, but it was not cancelled or we did not miss it entirely. Let me elaborate on my time there.  At 5:30 AM, we walked up this industrial building close to multiple factories and other autism services, and we tried to find the exact door. For a while there, we sat down by a door that had their service's name plastered on the front after i had rung the bell. For a while, nobody answered because we didn't know it then but that was not the correct door, so obviously no one really had reached us for a while. I'm ashamed to admit that it was enough to almost make me crash out, as in have a meltdown, but i was saved when someone walked by and finally recognized me.  Finally inside the place, another member met us and she recognized my mom because she was a worker at a daycare that i went to when i was a baby. The two discussed...

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 I’m really frustrated and confused right now, and I don’t know where to turn. I recently found out that my FSIQ score is in the 12th percentile, which I know is below average, but I’m still trying to figure out what that really means for me. I’ve always had cognitive deficits—trouble processing information, staying focused, and understanding instructions—but now that I’ve got the numbers, it feels like everything’s just a blur. I also have a diagnosis of ASD (Autism Spectrum Disorder), ADHD, and a Learning Disability in Mathematics and Written Expression. On top of that, I suspect I may have an undiagnosed Personality Disorder or Mood Disorder, or maybe I’m emotionally disturbed or disabled in some way. Honestly, I have no idea what to think. My medical history is all over the place, and I don’t feel like I have a full picture of my diagnoses. I’m frustrated because I can’t seem to make sense of all these different things. What does the FSIQ score mean for me? Is it related to my ...